ENTRY 3 - 3/30/2024. 9:12 AM EST.

i don't really have much to say !! ig i just feel like writing stuff down.

yesterday, i went to the cemetary. i walked through it for a bit, just taking in the silence and peacefulness of it all. it's self-reflectant, really, how i know that one day i'll probably be in the same resting place as my mother or uncle.

anyway, i went across the street to the park and read 'a mother's reckoning', a book by sue klebold which i recently borrowed from the library. it describes how dylan's mother dealt with the grief of not only her son, but the lives he took, along with the fact that she didn't completely know her son.

while i was in the park, it was kind of windy and chilly. it wasn't too uncomfortable though, even though i had a t-shirt on and no hoodie.

it's a pretty small park, no real playground, but a swingset that i like to go on sometimes. it also has a dog park and a small baseball field, along with one of those things with a roof over it but no walls, i forget the name of it... lol. theres also a small dog park there.

i spent at least 20-30 minutes there reading my book, until i heard dogs barking from the dog park. they were really cute !! i love dogs so much, but i personally prefer cats. i guess i just relate to them more than dogs. cats are a lot more moody, quiet, independant, and just overall cuter than dogs, while dogs are big, bulky, obnoxious creatures. they can also be dangerous sometimes. i know a lot of people who have been bitten by dogs, and i've even been pinned to the floor by one !! i was about ten or so, and i was over at my friend's house. it was about two or three in the morning and i really had to pee, so i went to the bathroom. her dog, woody, was there with me, acting all nice and polite, totally like he wasn't planning to try and bite my face off in a few minutes. anyway, i finished using the bathroom, and i was walking back to our bedroom, when he pushed me to the floor and basically tried to bite my face off... it was super scary, because i don't really remember screaming or anything. i only remember trying to hold his huge jaws shut with my hands to try and stop him from biting me. then i forget the rest. the next morning, i had a huge bruise on my chest, lol.

speaking of that friend, i miss her a lot !! we still talk a lot, but she lives in a different city than me, so we don't see eachother on a regular basis anymore. :-(( she always comes for new years though, and summer break, but it just isn't the same. i miss her, and i miss being young. we were both such weird little kids, talking about fnaf and roblox and undertale and stuff... but she's really changed. and i guess so have i also? (even though i still like all three of those things...) but i dunno, she has a boyfriend now, and all she talks about is fuckin taylor swift. I HATE TAYLOR SWIFT !!! ...i should add that to my list now that i think about it. guhhhh idk i just miss her a lot. okay, this is getting super lengthy so im gonna finish this off lol. :-33 if anyone read this far, thanks for giving a shit??? idk lol. BYE !!!!!!

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